Some time back, I was lost because I had started to hate the very thing I loved, engineering. It was because of a bad manager; bad is an understatement. I was poorly treated for my passion, and a close friend who worked at the same company helped me get out. OR let’s say he motivated me to get out rather than spending & wasting my passion there.

I was in a bad state, mentally beaten from the toxic culture that was going on. But I learned a lot about how not to be a boss. But also learned about how to be a leader.

I love where I work now; well, most of the time. But there will always be ups & downs. There are days when I want to pull my hair out but also days when I am happy to go to bed believing I’ve made a dent in science.

My current company understands my passion and drive and has a history of having Ex US army, navy, airforce, nuclear scientist, and ONE cosmonaut. That is way more than any other system’s team can have on the planet. Is this my tribe? In some way, yes, they are not as crazy as me but never judge me for my craziness; instead, we joke about it. I took the entire week off for my EMT final, and no one questioned me about it.

Finding your tribe is one of the hardest things in the world, but once you find it, your life changes. Crazy is what a crazy does. It takes one to know one.

I scored an 81 on my EMT final after one week of studying; I’m satisfied with it. Next are practicals and finally, the state exam.

One day at a time. I’m not entirely sure if I want to go to paramedic school asap; I need to rest and maybe concentrate back on my health in winter; I miss being a bit healthier and ripped. Again, hard to say which way I lean towards in the coming month.

I can’t believe I’m saying this, but I will miss the few friends I’ve made in my EMT class. I love the act of being a student struggling with medicine. And I love it. Am I good at it? Not even close. But I love it.

I lie about my age here on this site, and a few folks are trying to figure out my actual age in the EMT class. Going to school early could be a hint to them & that I’m of legal drinking age, but now just I’m enjoying this, a joke that never stops.